What am I doing?

Well.... I am coping.

I am smoking when I'm not at the office..... but not to a large degree.

And as long as I keep my mind off the truly heavy items, I'm doing okay. I believe this might actually be the turning point for me. Much like when I was able to do the same thing for that other jew.
In the end she wasn't right for me. Too many huge differences...and this one is no different. I just need to let it go. I'm better at letting it go than I have ever been before, but it is still something difficult to do.


and so I roll.