Long Time

It has been a long time since I have written anything here and for that I am thankful. The very fact that I cannot even bring myself to read the quite scathing hatred on this page says quite a lot as well.

I still have my issues but they are light-years from what they once were. It's been almost two years now that I feel myself in the current position I find myself, and quite frankly I'm fucking tired of it. But I can deal.





One day I want to start writing things I will enjoy reading, and have others enjoy reading as well.

holy shit

But this blog is full of anger, pain and vitrol.

The fact that I can hardly recognize it as being written by me is incredibly promising that I have actually made a solid change in my life.

This bitch is no good for me

The sooner I come to accepting that, the better I'll be.

Well...

There's many different ways I can talk about the last little while....

but for brevity's sake I'm going to boil it down to one thing:




Good Goddamn but that was fucking amazing.

Watch yourself, woman

One of these days you're going to be teasing me and I won't be able to take it anymore. I'm going to throw against the wall and have my way with you. And you won't be able to push me away for what I'm doing to you.

What happened this morning, in my head.

I woke up and looked over at you. You were lying on your back, your eyes closed, breathing slowly, your chest moving up and down ever so slightly.

I stared at you for awhile. The curve of your breast was so inticing, you looked so delicious. After awhile, I couldn't hold back anymore.

I slowly leaned over and kissed you gently on the cheek. You rustled a bit, like you were experiencing it in your dreams. I kissed you on your lips, you returned the kiss clumsily, not fully awake.

I moved down to the curve of your neck, kissing deeper now. A hint of a smile crossed your face, I heard a tiny noise from you, pleasant and inviting. I went to that space in between your neck and your collar bone, that little hollow, poking my tongue out and licking your soft smooth skin. I bit gently on your collar bone. You pretended to still be asleep, but I could tell by your widening smile and the way your arched your back that you were awake and loving every moment of this.











I moved down again, this time to the space between your wonderful breasts, running my lips all the way up and down them. Finally I couldn't take it anymore. I cupped your right breast with my hand and put my lips over your nipple sucking on you deeply, my tongue working its way all over you. You let out an involuntary moan and your back arched. I looked up at you staring deeply at me now, fully awake and lusty.


I sucked on you greedily, you tasted so good, you felt so soft and warm, my other hand reached down to your crotch, your panties already wet with desire. I started moving my hand back and forth, and your moans got louder and more out of control.


At one point you gave me a shove, rolled yourself onto me, licked your lips lustily and whispered "my turn" and then dove down. You tore off my boxers and flung them to the corner of the room, and then dove down upon me....taking the whole of me in.


You sucked and sucked and sucked, moaning deeper and deeper all the time. I couldn't hold it. It was just so good. Everything disappeared and all I knew was you taking all of me in, sucking deeper and harder and warmer and faster.


I'm going to cum, I said. I'm going to cum down your throat. You moaned in excitment and sped up. I couldn't hold myself...I exploded down your throat. You drank me all up, loving every single moment.



This is how I woke up this morning. In my head.

Once again...

I'm sleeping with her, but not sleeping with her.

Although she does sleep naked.

Good lord.





She looked so delicious this morning.