and now

I met a girl. We hit it off. It worked for awhile, but she wanted different things that what I wanted, so she ended it.

Nothing new. Nothing that hasn't happened before and won't happen again.

So I'm bummed about it. I don't want to be, but there it is. And I probobly won't be able to get thru this until I LET myself be bummed about this, be as bummed as I need to be so I can come out clean on the other side.

But I hate it. It makes me feel weak. It makes me feel like a loser.